Kangen rumah.

Gue kangen rumah. Kangen Jakarta. Kangen temen-temen gue. Hiks.

Ga tau ya, suka berasa kesepian aja di sini, temen gue ga sebanyak di Jakarta, bahkan kadang berasa ga punya temen. Kangen ketemu temen, nginep2an di cosmo terrace, ngobrol apa aja dari A sampai Z.

But the thing is getting complicated after my grandma passed away. I don’t have a place called home. Kalo gue pulang, gue musti pulang ke rumah orangtua gue, untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup gue, gue tidak pulang ke rumah nenek gue. Gue ga bisa bayangin. Gue ga mau. Gue ga deket sama orang tua gue dan banyak masalah di antara kita yang tidak bisa diungkapkan di sini. Itulah kenapa gue pengen banget tinggal di Prancis, dapat kerjaan di Prancis dan menetap di sini. Tapi gue ngerasa kangen Jakarta banget. Kangen sama temen-temannya. Hiks. Gue bingung. Pengen pulang tapi ga pengen pulang. I don’t know, i feel that i am lonely and not well accepted here. I don’t feel comfortable with this country. But…

*let me cry*

 

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